25. Last 2 weeks of freedom

I managed to get a quick last minute appointment and have my roots blonded today as I know I won't be able or be feeling like getting my hair done for quite some time. :(

You aren't allowed to have colours or bleach during radiotherapy, and they advise you wait for at least 8-12 weeks after treatments have finished to let your hair recover and start to grow again normally, with that timeline in mind I knew it meant I probably won't be able to have my hair done again now until March. I had my long hair all cut off last June, pre-empting the cancer diagnosis, although I never told anyone that was the reason obviously, and to be honest I've hated looking in a mirror ever since.

I was even more upset when I eventually found out I wasn't going to be having the sort of treatment where I would go bald anyway :( so it had been for nothing.

I might lose a patch of hair at the back where the radio waves exit my head but they said it will be a patch approx 5cm in diameter and it will be up under the back on my hair line at the top of my neck. Obviously it might look a bit weird if I had my hair up, but I'm not in the habit of walking round backwards and looking in mirrors so I probably wouldn't have much noticed, and anyone else ... well... pppffttttt they can just think I've got mange or something.

Yesterday I got a phone call to say the builders were coming to start on our oak gazebo that's on the back of the house, between the utility room and the garage. Bad timing ; but we've been waiting for 5 months, and they are going to be done in the next couple of weeks so at least it will be finished before I start daily trips to the hospital. We will have lived here a year on the 29th and we have managed to do all the jobs we wanted to get done in this first year. So now this getting done and over puts the cherry on the cake really, so I have to look on the bright side, and it will at least take my mind off what's coming. I hope that as of January I can relax and recover and everywhere will be sorted. I know the only thing that's going to get me through the bad weeks after radiotherapy ends and I'm still 'cooking' for 4-6 after, is that as soon as I have enough energy, we are finally going on holiday, on a plane, somewhere sunny, and for a whole week not just long enough until the cats pop up clockwork feeding bowls will last ( like we have for the last 15 yrs)

I can't wait tbh, and by then I know I'll will deserve every second of the break. Until then I'm just having to look out at more drizzle and chuck another log in the log burner and huddle in my old winter cardi and try my hardest not to think about looking at Xmas food ..... well unless its turkey soup.