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Hi, however you found your way to my page, either through a common sharing of HPV cancer diagnosis, or knowing or caring for someone who has been diagnosed , in treatment, or post treatment I hope you find a little common ground and something to relate or even smile about. Sharing makes it less lonely and having cancer is a lonely place to be. Mandi x

The Cockwart Saga

61. Back to the battle ground.

Yesterday saw me back at Addenbrookes clinic 10 for my 6 week post treatment review 9 mins of weighing weeing and shoving cameras up my nose. The Irish ENT dr seemed more than impressed with what she saw, Im healing up and doing marvellously apparently. Dietician and speech therapy rung and 'discharged' me today as Im ahead of the expected recovery schedule by weeks she said. I know I'm far from over everything, but seeing some of the people in the waiting room of clinic 10 w

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61. Back to the battle ground.

Yesterday saw me back at Addenbrookes clinic 10 for my 6 week post treatment review 9 mins of weighing weeing and shoving cameras up my nose. The Irish ENT dr seemed more than impressed with what she saw, Im healing up and doing marvellously apparently. Dietician and speech therapy rung and 'discharged' me today as Im ahead of the expected recovery schedule by weeks she said. I know I'm far from over everything, but seeing some of the people in the waiting room of clinic 10 w

4 days ago2 min read

60. Another reason to live.

Well the last few days have been a bit shit if I'm honest. Apart from losing my bank card, trying to make sure I didn't catch the cold Paul came back from Manchester with and the fact the spa break I had arranged for this weekend was a total flop, I have to say I have felt pretty tired and pissed off with life in general and not really sure why I am doing much at all. Everything health wise seems a bit over whelming, new little things keep emerging daily and I'm not sure if i

Feb 233 min read

59. Sniffs and chips

Paul visited his mum last weekend and although I told him to be extra careful, as I'm still battling to regain an functioning immune system after radiotherapy 😞 he has come home, been sniffing constantly all week ( so annoying) and Wednesday night came down with man flu. Luckily I spend 95% of my time in my bedroom these days, only venturing out to take Lottie for a wee in the garden or when I have a bath or shower. Not fully eating I've got used to us not eating together, a

Feb 132 min read

58. Groundhog days.

Everything seems to be going slowly back to normal..... but not quite 🤔 My energy levels are allowing me to be up and about ( if I decide to) and do washing, ironing, take Lottie out the garden etc; At the weekend I even managed to have a sort out of my clothes, be it in stages when my arms got tired, and threw away loads of stuff so everything wasn't all crammed in and the rails of my wardrobes bowing 😱 The weather has been diabolical all year, basically they said its rai

Feb 113 min read

57. February arrives at last.

Its been a long month since Christmas and new year, January is always a bit gloomy even under normal circumstances post Xmas but this year was probably the worst ever. Last August, I saw an advert for a night time concert in Ely cathedral, playing the themes of famous cinema, not even knowing what was to come I booked 2 tickets and convinced myself it was something I wouldn't forget or just conveniently find excuses for not going by the time it came round. Since then, obvious

Feb 13 min read

The Cockwart Saga is a journey of resilience, where every step forward is battle against myself as well as against cancer.

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Welcome to my blog and I hope sharing the good days, the bad days, the screaming, and crying, the laughs and of course, the bad language help you understand this part of my life.

When I sat in that empty corridor on the 4th August 2025 staring at the deli ticket in my hand 'patient 27' I didn't know what was ahead of me.
I knew something wasn't right and had been sure it 'was' something for over a year, but like everyone you never think its going to be you, until it is you!
My first reaction was that I wouldn't even bother, and within 48 hours had booked and paid for my funeral.

I was ready to give in, after losing my mum finally from Frontal Lobe Dementia, and in a surreal un expected shock of an afternoon a week before, my beloved cat BOY, dying out of nowhere in my arms on our kitchen floor, I just felt like rolling over to the cosmic joker and holding up my hands and saying 'ok you win! I'll go quietly!'
But I haven't......
And here is where I tell my story... warts and all!

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