67. Its Easter!

The season of eggs made of chocolate and rabbits, I get the new beginning part of the symbol of an egg, but we can't get away from the fact Easter has become just another reason for a school holiday and a long weekend off work. Don't you always find it strange that all the dedicated public holidays are so evenly spaced throughout the calendar year? Almost as if they were planned by a mental health HR blue sky thinking group to alleviate people getting so bored of the endless grind they kept taking time off sick, rather than the dates set out by the bible...mmmm now there's something for you think about, and also realise why my religious studies teacher absolutely hated me...LOL Another interesting fact, Easter is the only Christian holiday that Jehovah's witness's actually celebrate because it can actually be proven as to the correct date on the calendar as it changes every year in line with the moon phases.

Anyway, stuff your face with so much chocolate you feel sick, tuck into some dead animal in celebration and Happy Easter, here endeth the lesson for today. Now lets talk about me! This week has seen some rapid decline in my throat, sadly.

Its making my voice come and go and its hard to swallow. For the past 3 days I have had sores in the roof of my mouth like when I was having treatment, and after my tonsillectomy. And I'm telling you, they are a right bastard! Worse than anything else, it just makes you so miserable. I have a bit of cough in the upper part of my chest, like the tubes going down to my lungs not actually in my lungs, it feels congested and thick and very hard to breathe at times. my mouth is like the dessert, and I am having to swill out with salt water again, the first time I've done that since Jan, and use various mouthwashes in the hope of killing whatever germ this is; as i am convinced its a germ, not a recovery blip. My throat was getting tighter but I think that's just from healing tissues that got damaged from the radiotherapy, but this almost 'chest infection' type feeling but not in your lungs in your upper respiratory tract and throat and mouth I think is definitely a germ I have picked up somewhere. There's loads of coughs and colds around and actually I've been lucky so far through this to never have got anything. I just hope I can stay on my feet, keep eating and get through this week and get done what I need to do without having to cancel anything. The weather is unusually windy the past few days, but I suppose we shouldn't complain its not unknown for it to be snowing at Easter before now.

Lottie went and had her first proper hair cut since my diagnosis last July so she's prancing about looking like a cruft's winner all proud of herself, and the doorbell goes daily at 6 pm with the Evri man bringing and collecting parcels of stuff I have been getting for our holiday. So another week has slipped past, and although not great health wise this week, its still all doable! I can't help keep hearing the little voice in the back of head reminding me of the 'Bum Dr' in May but I'm 'la-la-lar-la-ing' at the moment and trying to think about everything good before I have to think about the possibility of my next serving of cancer in another part of body ( and we haven't even looked at the heart aneurysm yet ) Oh well you gotta die of something I suppose, just hope its not before I have my holiday!